GODDAMMIT

[wigglewhiz]

Weigh in results this week: GAINED 0.1 kg.

FUCK.

I know that's only 100g, but... FUCK.

I did 6 hours of total exercise this week. 6 hours. Which is nearly twice as much as last week. I haven't been able to point everything I've eaten, because we were in the "last week before pay week" death throes and I could only eat our old pantry stand-bys of WHITE PASTA and BREAD. But I didn't go batshit and I thought I'd managed to eat... well, sensibly enough. No fast food, no snacking, no massive portions.

Gutted, despondent, quite likely to cave in and have a bit of a snotter in self-pity. *sigh*

Will pull myself up by my bootstraps and just get back on with it in the fullness of time, but for today I'll just focus on the dreaded PROPERTY INSPECTION, OMG - which will probably be a disaster because of the mutilated bush thing outside that I haven't had time to remedy, and the overgrown grass which was meant to be mown today before inspection but can't be BECAUSE THERE'S ICE FALLING OUT OF THE SKY AGAIN.

FML.

Comments

[suzycat.livejournal.com]

IT'S MUSCLE!

I won't weigh myself, I go on measurements, which makes it a bit less terrifying.

[wigglewhiz.livejournal.com]

Hmmmm, I'm going to have to hope that it's muscle. :o( Very disheartening.

I go through these kind of loss/no loss/loss/no loss cycles, so I'm trying not to get too down about it. Fortunately I took all my measurements before I started this whole re-shape push, so I'll go measure myself and hopefully have some good news instead! Must... keep self... away from consolatory chocolate...

[parasitegirl.livejournal.com]

Hell, only .1 can mean just water bloat.

Your weight is gonna fluctuate through the day,week,horomone cycle. AND you may be gaining muscle. Measuring might help keep those scale fluctuations in mental perspective.

Also remember that it's gonna be harder to lose weight when you've got all those stressors spiking randomly through the day. I've been reading up on my (and your) sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system and the things it does and I appreciate it as a complex machine, but the affects of stress are no fun and not very helpful for maintaining general health. It's also much harder to make healthy food choices during stress:

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=122781981

Simplified fun appetite reaction after stress: your body is designed to access energy in many ways and supress appetite at stress, Because you can't run away from predators and worry about eating at the same time, but at the same time your body also releases hormones that encourage appetite and body rebuilding to spike when the stress reactions wear off.

I'm not saying to give up or that any of this is impossible, but if you're going through as many reason for stress spikes as I think you are right now, set your goals at reasonable levels (you can always increase your goals later after some progress) so you don't feel too overwhelmed and "OMG I FAIL" and "Fuck it! NEVER GONNA HAPPEN! fuck it ALL!" at small slips.

And, hugs.

I've been larger than I am now and in much worse shape than I am now...and while I don't think that means I understand everything from your point of view, I do I know it's not easy and not simply a willpower thing. It's a complex and overwhelming and many thinged thing and it isn't easy and the process is full of little things that can make you feel like hell.

Take care.

[wigglewhiz.livejournal.com]

Awwww, thank you. :o) Just... thank you. Even if the "Fuck it! NEVER GONNA HAPPEN! Fuck it ALL!" commentary made me look around to see WHERE YOU WERE HIDING A CAMERA IN MY HOUSE! ;o)

[nikkiraqs.livejournal.com]

I ought to weigh myself too - to give myself a kick up the arse!

[wigglewhiz.livejournal.com]

No arse kicking! ;o) I'm advocating a no-self-hate stance to weight loss. So there!

[khalidad.livejournal.com]

aw, don't sweat it too much.. if you're excercising more then yes, measuring might be more of a motivator at the start, as weight fluctuates and the body reacts, esp. when things get stressful. and yes, 0.1 can indeed be just water bloat. or go pee and try again ;)